Maybe it's because I spent the hour from 2:30 to 3:30 trying to sort out all the million things that kept swimming around in my head and no matter what I just couldn't fall back to sleep.
Stress will do that to you I guess.
Curious what was keeping me up? Here's just a glimpse of my inner dialogue. Don't laugh too hard.
- My work trip to San Diego is in a week! Wheee!! So excited, but so much to do to get ready!
- Why do I have to fly to San Diego on Southwest? Flying stresses me out to the max in usual circumstances, but flying on an airline where I don't have a reserved seat and could potentially get stuck in a middle seat for a five and a half hour cross-country flight makes me hyperventilate a little bit. Don't panic, self, it's going to be fine. Deep breaths!
- I didn't blog yesterday and I felt like there was a small void in my life. That's sad.
- I'm the world's laziest person ever and I haven't worked out in like a week and now I feel like crap. The stupid heat just makes me so unmotivated and I can't stand the thought of another treadmill run. But if I would run, then I'd have something to blog about. Stop being such a lazy bum self!
- I have so many fun plans scheduled for this week! I am so freakin' excited, but I'm seriously overbooked. Oops. So much for finding time to fit in a run.
- Ugh doctor's appointment tomorrow. I really hope they don't need to draw blood.
- Why does my credit card statement not reflect that fact that I paid the bill already like weeks ago? Why was customer service not at all helpful when I called in a tizzy? Yes, I know paying off the bill in full every month is good for my credit score, that's why I do it, but I just wanted to know if my payment went through.
- Why do I talk so much in situations where I'm nervous?
You know what would probably help clear my head a bit? A good run. I really need to find the time to make that happen, even if it means sucking it up and using the treadmill. I also need to learn to get my inner dialogue under control.
When you're stressed to the max about a million different things, how do you handle it? I'd really love to be able to sleep through the night like a normal person again.